21st of June… I made myself vulnerable… and became intimate with him… Joshua Harris said that “the joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment…” Am I ready to commit? Well… I have been committing myself to this person so long time ago… and simply because my love for him is a decision and come from loving Christ. I hope you’ll be blessed to read this… May God be praised!!!
Let me tell you this... not too long time ago… I found the seed of faith that God gave me… I was slowly growing in love with Christ but I need to give it up for my relationship then… we don’t share the same faith… our relationship was based on the world’s standards… our love for each other was based on how we satisfy and fulfill each other’s needs… our commitment and intimacy was based on the passion we have for each other… I would not say it was a bad relationship for because of it, I have become better… and I would always be thankful to Ali… after 5 years… it ended… leaving me wounded… but guess what? God wants to write my love story…
Latter part of my relationship then was a mess… then my cousin introduced me to Ryane… it started with hi and hello… the bet… the coffee… the books… and the rest was history… realizing how far we have gone through would really be a surprised to everyone… especially to those people who are close to me… why? HE IS EVERYTHING I WRITE AGAINST… But want to know the secret??? WE ARE PRAYER PARTNERS… the very day I knew him… I already asked God to nourish his faith… that we will someday shares the same love for Christ. I was not really a Christian then… but I kept on praying… then came a point my relationship enkindled… I need to make a choice… I silently said goodbye to him, (still have the letter with me…) I knew he became very special and saying goodbye was the hardest thing to do… months passed we seldom have talk and I thought that should be the thing… I made my commitment to make my relationship then work… but I never stop praying to God that He will nourish his faith and use him for HIS glory. True enough… I knew he was with SFC… I am not really convinced with the community he was in but still I am truly thankful. Then, the feelings never stop… the longing never ended… I kept on praying… that God would take him away from me… I fought hard each day… there’s no reason for me to fall in love with him… I prayed each day… submitting the desires of my heart to God and asking for what is right.
True enough… the relationship ended…. I was so devastated… who wouldn’t? I felt it was too late since I already commit myself to the relationship, planned my life according to it… I tried to bargain God… I always do that every time we had a fight… but He did not agree to it… I stopped trading… I rested… I stopped praying… but someone… somewhere… there’s this one person who is constantly praying for my happiness and for what is right in my life. He silently hoped and wished for my goodness… *kilig*
It was not an easy journey… but I was blessed that it never took me forever to accept HIS grace and HIS will. My birthday came and there I know God perfectly made things to happen… I was silently wishing, Ryane would call… for the first time after everything that happened I felt blissful… I can’t discern His will then… Ryane did call and the very first person who greeted me at 12 Midnight. He made this day special… with the flowers… I felt so happy reading the card that comes with it… I prayed for him again… this time, thanking God for answering my prayer. He did nourish Ryane’s faith… and even more…
Months passed and I knew… I have never let him go… and all the more I longed for him… but really God is a God of secrets… he did not reveal HIS plans sooner than I thought of… impatient that I am… I challenged HIM… this time… I was asking God to take him away from me if my feeling does not come from Him and if we are not meant to be… so I can preserve myself to the one I am truly meant for. I go on convincing myself it was over… and was holding on to God’s promise… My GG will come in HIS perfect time…
When God wanted things to happen… it will… “be careful what you wish for”, Joshua Harris said… God called me… He perfectly laid HIS plans… in spite of my prejudices against SFC CFC… he called me to serve in that same community I hated the most… I saw how he blessed Ryane with pains and joys… and I give it a shot… I eventually finished my CLP and the more I know God and how unconditional His love is, the more I waited for Ryane… wishing and praying for his happiness… because of God’s love in me… I learned to love someone with everything that he is…was and will be… and for the first time… statue was not an issue to me… luxury in life is just a bonus… what’s important is… he can be my prayer partner… someone I can praise and worship with… someone who is also so in love with Christ and will follow His will…
I let things unfold… and I am claiming it… He is my God’s Gift…
Well, after all this time… we finally have our commitment… and it’s a covenant we will protect. The prayer time we have… brings us closer to God and to each other… getting intimate with each other in Christ… enjoying friendship with Christ together… yearning to pleased God everyday of our lives… allowing God to use us to HIS pleasure and glory. I am not sugar coating and certainly there’s no smoke of clouds in my eyes. I am seeing the reality and that’s why I am asking God’s grace to continue nourishing us and hopefully we will grow in love in Christ. That we can faithfully and patiently wait for HIS perfect time. This is not an easy journey… I have my lonesome days and crying nights wanting to be with him… but God has better plans for us… and we are truly relying on HIS grace… all I know is that this is the kind of love God wanted us to have… unconditional… seeks one’s goodness, embraces one’s weakness, and willing to give ourselves for each other… Love that is deepens with our commitment to bring pleasure and glory to God. It is really a work in progress… thanks to our friends and family who keep on praying for us…
“Where is true joy? It’s found in God’s brand of love – love founded on faithfulness, love rooted in commitment. The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment.”
Thanks Honey… I will remain in you as I remain CHRIST…
Let me tell you this... not too long time ago… I found the seed of faith that God gave me… I was slowly growing in love with Christ but I need to give it up for my relationship then… we don’t share the same faith… our relationship was based on the world’s standards… our love for each other was based on how we satisfy and fulfill each other’s needs… our commitment and intimacy was based on the passion we have for each other… I would not say it was a bad relationship for because of it, I have become better… and I would always be thankful to Ali… after 5 years… it ended… leaving me wounded… but guess what? God wants to write my love story…
Latter part of my relationship then was a mess… then my cousin introduced me to Ryane… it started with hi and hello… the bet… the coffee… the books… and the rest was history… realizing how far we have gone through would really be a surprised to everyone… especially to those people who are close to me… why? HE IS EVERYTHING I WRITE AGAINST… But want to know the secret??? WE ARE PRAYER PARTNERS… the very day I knew him… I already asked God to nourish his faith… that we will someday shares the same love for Christ. I was not really a Christian then… but I kept on praying… then came a point my relationship enkindled… I need to make a choice… I silently said goodbye to him, (still have the letter with me…) I knew he became very special and saying goodbye was the hardest thing to do… months passed we seldom have talk and I thought that should be the thing… I made my commitment to make my relationship then work… but I never stop praying to God that He will nourish his faith and use him for HIS glory. True enough… I knew he was with SFC… I am not really convinced with the community he was in but still I am truly thankful. Then, the feelings never stop… the longing never ended… I kept on praying… that God would take him away from me… I fought hard each day… there’s no reason for me to fall in love with him… I prayed each day… submitting the desires of my heart to God and asking for what is right.
True enough… the relationship ended…. I was so devastated… who wouldn’t? I felt it was too late since I already commit myself to the relationship, planned my life according to it… I tried to bargain God… I always do that every time we had a fight… but He did not agree to it… I stopped trading… I rested… I stopped praying… but someone… somewhere… there’s this one person who is constantly praying for my happiness and for what is right in my life. He silently hoped and wished for my goodness… *kilig*
It was not an easy journey… but I was blessed that it never took me forever to accept HIS grace and HIS will. My birthday came and there I know God perfectly made things to happen… I was silently wishing, Ryane would call… for the first time after everything that happened I felt blissful… I can’t discern His will then… Ryane did call and the very first person who greeted me at 12 Midnight. He made this day special… with the flowers… I felt so happy reading the card that comes with it… I prayed for him again… this time, thanking God for answering my prayer. He did nourish Ryane’s faith… and even more…
Months passed and I knew… I have never let him go… and all the more I longed for him… but really God is a God of secrets… he did not reveal HIS plans sooner than I thought of… impatient that I am… I challenged HIM… this time… I was asking God to take him away from me if my feeling does not come from Him and if we are not meant to be… so I can preserve myself to the one I am truly meant for. I go on convincing myself it was over… and was holding on to God’s promise… My GG will come in HIS perfect time…
When God wanted things to happen… it will… “be careful what you wish for”, Joshua Harris said… God called me… He perfectly laid HIS plans… in spite of my prejudices against SFC CFC… he called me to serve in that same community I hated the most… I saw how he blessed Ryane with pains and joys… and I give it a shot… I eventually finished my CLP and the more I know God and how unconditional His love is, the more I waited for Ryane… wishing and praying for his happiness… because of God’s love in me… I learned to love someone with everything that he is…was and will be… and for the first time… statue was not an issue to me… luxury in life is just a bonus… what’s important is… he can be my prayer partner… someone I can praise and worship with… someone who is also so in love with Christ and will follow His will…
I let things unfold… and I am claiming it… He is my God’s Gift…
Well, after all this time… we finally have our commitment… and it’s a covenant we will protect. The prayer time we have… brings us closer to God and to each other… getting intimate with each other in Christ… enjoying friendship with Christ together… yearning to pleased God everyday of our lives… allowing God to use us to HIS pleasure and glory. I am not sugar coating and certainly there’s no smoke of clouds in my eyes. I am seeing the reality and that’s why I am asking God’s grace to continue nourishing us and hopefully we will grow in love in Christ. That we can faithfully and patiently wait for HIS perfect time. This is not an easy journey… I have my lonesome days and crying nights wanting to be with him… but God has better plans for us… and we are truly relying on HIS grace… all I know is that this is the kind of love God wanted us to have… unconditional… seeks one’s goodness, embraces one’s weakness, and willing to give ourselves for each other… Love that is deepens with our commitment to bring pleasure and glory to God. It is really a work in progress… thanks to our friends and family who keep on praying for us…
“Where is true joy? It’s found in God’s brand of love – love founded on faithfulness, love rooted in commitment. The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment.”
Thanks Honey… I will remain in you as I remain CHRIST…
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