For Ryane... Get Well Soon!!!

Truly God works in mysteroius ways...

Last Thursday night, I had a pretty short conversation with Ryane... and damn... I missed him... the line was cut off and I did not bother to call again, I went off to sleep... it will be another days of chasing rainbows and butterflies... I am not really sure what's God's plan for us... but I already have surrendered him to God.

I was on my home from Bagiou that Saturday night when Jern texted me that something happened to Ryane. I regret that I did not call him back last Thursday night. I was thinking that was supposed to be our last conversation had it been God did not give him another chance. Hay!!! I was so devastated and don't know where to get my strength when Jern told me Ryane had an accident, and he is unconscious. Since I was in the bus, I cannot cry my heart out. You know that moment in your life when you just want to fly and be with that someone.. someone you truly care and longed to be with. That was my moment and I wanted to see him... be with him... But all I could do is hold on and enthrust Ryane to God.

I was so down and God lifted me up. My heart's desire at that moment is for Ryane to hear me pleading... for him to come back. I was crying the whole night begging God... I once asked Him to nourish Ryane's faith and truly he answered it. Deep down in me is rejoicing at that time because I know God is really working in us. But I have to very honest, I was shattered and would not want to continue my CLP. I almost would want to let go... but God has been so good that he comforted me... consoled me. I am so blessed that I have this faith and truly God is true to His promise. Ryane is now conscious and is now recuperating. Thanks to those who helped me pray for his recovery.

I was with Jern yesterday, we attended mass. It was fun co'z being with him is like being with Ryane. I really hope Jern would realize what he wants and his personal legend.

TO Ryane:

Today, today I bet my life
You have no idea
What I feel inside
Don't, be afraid to let it show
For you'll never know If you let it hide

I love you You love me
Take this gift and don't ask why
Cause if you will let me
I'll take what scares you Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I'm with you
And why I'll never Leave
Love will show you everything

One day
When youth is just a memory
I know you'll be standing right next to me

I love you
You love me
Take this gift and don't ask why
Cause if you will let me
I'll take what scares you Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I'm with you
And why I'll never Leave

My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything

Truly everything works for good to those who love the LOrd...

God bless. Get well soon!!!

R E N G

It's been days passed since Reng left and I cannot get over the feeling still...

Pot and I bid farewell to her last Saturday night. We went to see her before she left for Dubai... ganito pala un... We have not been together... as in really together lately... actually ever since Ali got into my life... but we knew we are always here for each other... I always know that... from the time I was so nothing and nobody... to the time I almost have everything... then to the time everything was taken from me... she was with me... in physical... in emotional... in her prayers...

We have ups and downs... We certainly have our differences but I know inspite of it all... she will always embrace me... whatever it takes!!!

Can this get any worst? Well, when she broke the news that she is leaving... I know, everything will change... alam mo yung feeling na andyan lang sya lagi... whew!!! hirap!!! Then all of the sudden she is gone... the selfish side of me... wanted to hold her... co'z life is never the same without her... but i know... she deserves it and I know in time, will be together again... I am truly happy seeing her thousand miles away from me because I know God has a perfect plan for her... i missed her and will always miss her...

God bless Reng... I'm just here... Keep on praying... love you!!!