Thursday, July 27, 2006

simply tiring... yet... learning...

Well, its been two weeks that I am in Negros now... well... I gain weight a lot... and taba ko na... i was so so surprised that my pants and shirts almost don't fit anymore... hehehhe!!! well... i am enjoying really my stay here... though a bit sad but learning a lot...

i am pretty domisticated here... and i am learning being at home full time... dividing my time between cleaning... doing the laundry then preparing the meals... wow... more so... doing the food marketing... see my daily routine: (not quite on time but somehow...)

5am: jogging with dad
6am: preparing for breakfast and andrea's baon for school
7am: daily prayer
8am-10am: cleaning the house or doing the laundry or internet...
11am: preparing for lunch
12NN: Lunch...
1pm: paliliguan si kyle (my 5-yr old nephew) for school
2pm: accompany kyle to school...
2:30-4pm: siesta... reading books... or still doing some chores (depends)
4pm: bonding with my mom sa tindahan...
5:30pm: prepares for dinner
6pm: assists andre and kyle in their assignments
7:30: dinner...
8pm onwards... tv or might be sleeping na...

pretty relaxed right... but i am telling you being full time housewife/houdehld help is not a joke... and so tiring...

with my stay here... i knew and found out my purpose... my mission...

Thursday, July 20, 2006

What a Life?

Wow… it’s been sometime… and it’s been a roller coaster ride of emotions…

July 2-3, 2006: I was so lucky to have my household with me… we had our fellowship at Caleruega, Tagaytay, then Island Cove… Carmen, Hazel and I ended the night with a very meaningful conversation… can life gets better than this? Well… so blessed… and today I decided to let my love go… pretty tough decision… but I am at peace…

July 9, 2006: The next weekend… I went to attend the prison ministry… wow… truly in serving others you’ll find your purpose… and this day I commit my self to serve more… being with this people made me realize how much God have blessed me all these years…

July 10, 2006: I need to leave work and so I decided to go home in Negros for good… want know what I am feeling? SHATTERED!!! I felt so devastated and sad… and I want to go ask for shield… I cried the whole night and I know God had consoled me… I am truly unprepared…

July 13, 2006: I attended my household though I really do not want to… I can’t say goodbye to these people I have come to share my defeats and triumphs… but I need to… I was blessed on how they supported me… in my decisions, in my pains… how much they embraced me in my defeats… thanks to Ems, Tina, Claire, Irvin, Carmen, Bryan and Hazel… to those who silently wished for me: JR, Rhod, Melaine, Jhen, Art and Jean… thanks as well… I also went to see Jern… hay goodbyes…

July 14, 2006: For the first time… going back in Negros was so hard for me… I really do not know… but I don’t want to leave… all the while I thought that my flight is at 11am when it is supposed to be at 10am. So I was late, had it rebooked at 120am tomorrow… I went to see Ms Cecille for my clearance… then had dinner with Bryan and Hazel… can’t leave them really…

July 15, 2006: What a tiresome journey back home… to make the long story short, I have been traveling the whole night. I had hard time finding a cab when we arrived in Cebu, so I agreed to share cab with someone else… hay… and we became acquainted… I arrived in Manjuyod at 8am… went to see Dad and my Mother… my journey of soul searching now begin…
We had a delicious dinner… birthday party for dad… we ordered lechon… pancit… chopsuey… barbecue… etc… Dad was so happy and I am really overwhelmed…

July 16, 2006: I spent the day… nice learning: What one must do to grow: PACKING AND UNPACKING…

To date I am still here… enjoying life’s simplicity… I am learning to cook… I am doing household chores… tutor the kids… visit my friends and relatives… hay!!! With this, I realized my life is no longer here and I can no longer walk in my own footprints again… I need to go back… and start all over again… more grown up now… more responsible… and more love and trust… this is all about FAITH AND SURRENDERING… deciding for the things that I want and having Christ on the side... I am enjoying this journey ended...
I am still keeping my 5pm covenant... I am missing him each time but I am more responsible now...
I am missing my household... my GK... and my Prison Min... whatever happened... it will not stop me from serving...
At the end of the day... when you have played all your cards and you've run out of options... then God wanted you to know something... God tells you to rest...
May God be praised...
See yah soon...