Tuesday, February 28, 2006

back to blogging... and more of me...



Wow... It took me more than two months... and you bet... I have a lot to write...
Well, happy New Year... this is indeed my first official post for the year. hehehe!!!

Last year was indeed a roller-coaster ride of emotions. I laugh a lot… cried a lot… loose weight a little… gain weight more… hehehe!!! Lose a friend… gain a new one... been in almost both extremes and the best part of it… I am fallen’ in love…

Well, had a wonderful start of the year. No more baggage and finally I could say I have moved on and accept my defeat and enjoy the blessings that come with it. I spend my new year in Negros at my Dad’s house… with my cousins, nieces and nephews, and relatives. It was fun… we went to the beach… I just relaxed and enjoy its tranquility… I have never been sooo relaxed in my whole life.

After my broke up with Ali and after me picking up the pieces again, I know I could finally say this… I have forgiven them… and I hope they will forgive me. Truly, it was a good relationship that ended bad and after all that has been said and done… I still would want to thank Ali for always letting me learned life’s best lessons… and I know Ali will always be a part of me. He was a great friend... a good provider and a shoulder to cry on... I know what we have gone through taught us a lot and it will surely help us become a better partner and individual. And I hope we will love our partner more than ever, alllowing ourselves to truly experience the very true essence of finding one's true love... I know in time... all wounds will be healed... Thanks Ali... Good luck and Stay in love...

This is indeed a wonderful year for me. I have been really blessed with true good friends. I will always be grateful for:

RA, Sam and Erick. I know, we don’t go out that often now since we are all busy with our lives. Sam in his struggles whether to leave for Dubai or not; RA with his new relationship; and Erick with his wedding.

I have not seen or talk with Cat, Pot and Reng for so long, but I know they're just there for me… and I missed them.

David on the other hand is still there cheering my day.
To my mobsters family, and specially to Jaja… hay!!! Who would have thought I could find friendship in this very quite and eccentric person… but I am indeed lucky and blessed she have come to trusts me and supports me… letting me see the other side when sometimes I am lost… hehehe!!!

Of course, to Kuya Alwell, Ate Vicks, Kuya Uly, Kuya Yugs and of course Kuya Bes, who still celebrate special occasions with me… and still support me in my struggles, always willing to accept me in my moods, defeats and triumphs...

And lastly, I am indeed blessed to know Jern… I never realized we could be really good friends… and that he would share his thoughts and his beings with me… trusting me with his deep-dark secrets… running to me when he is in need. It is indeed very overwhelming…

Now can you see how happy and blessed I am right now?And Wait there’s more:

I am indeed enjoying my relationship with GOD and I am proud to say that I am on the process of knowing HIM more… developing my relationship with HIM… giving up my worldly thoughts to follow HIM. Opps… don’t get me wrong… I am not there yet, but on the process… but one thing is certain, I will give up everything for HIM because that’s how much I love HIM.

And I am in love…
Well, who would have thought…? I have loved him all this time… and I know I wasn’t brave enough to admit it then since I am not sure if the feeling is the same. But I have crossed the bridge… whether he’ll be at the end of the bridge waiting for me or not… I love him not because he loves me… whatever is in store for us… I know, in time it’ll blossom… just like the missing piece…

I am still continuing praying for him and for us… as my old line goes… “You know what’s the worst thing in life, WAITING!!!” but now… it’s even worst... “I don’t mind waiting and experience all the worst in life… with HIM!!!” Luxury in life is indeed a bonus… but having him is more than that… and we know in God’s time… for now, we are both nourishing our relationship with GOD.

Truly, “everything works for good to those who LOVE the LORD”.